Alright, here's the list. I decided to post it separately, because, damn, its long. Better if we can see the intro to the thread on its own, methinks.
Alright, guys. This is some deep stuff here. Every fear I can think of that is in me, lain out before you. Why would I do that? Because I'm fascinated and terrified (duh
) by fear. Fear is my thrill-ride, fear is my study, fear is an important exercise of my imagination.
How I hate it and how I don't know what life would be like without it. ;D I'm no coward, but I have alot of fears: the thing is, if I must, I face them, fists balled, grimacing. I won't let them control my life, but they sure do affect it.
Here they are:
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness/
Lygophobia- Fear of darkness./
Myctophobia- Fear of darkness./
Scotophobia- Fear of darkness. (Achluophobia): Well, I've explained this before. The dark is where we can't see; and when we can't see, we wonder WHAT we can't see. And with a mind carrying a powerful imagination, we wonder until we CAN see what we can't see. And, of course, we wonder the worst.
Acrophobia- Fear of heights./
Altophobia- Fear of heights.: I like to make a point of stressing this. I'm not too afraid of heights. Just a little, but only for the following phobia-reason.
Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places.: There we go; "OPEN high places". Why? Because thats when I feel like I could fall. I don't get scared when I'm on the Power Tower or big rollercosters that go really high, because I'm strapped in and I can easily *not* think about the ride crashing.
But if there are not supports, no straps, no protections, thats when I feel unsafe, even if I probably am safe. I stay a good 5-10 meters back from any ledge, and am caucious at somewhat-railed ledges.
I'm not afraid of heights; I'm afraid of falling. If I trip and fall, my heart skips a few beats even then.
Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects./
Belonephobia- Fear of pins and needles. (Aichmophobia) /
Trypanophobia- Fear of injections.
This is more a fear than a phobia. I won't cringe and cry when its needle time; but I WILL *hate* every single moment of it. Then, I will accidently re-imagine the experiance later on (*very* vividly; feeling, pain, you got it).
Amnesiphobia- Fear of amnesia./
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting : This has gotta be one of my worse phobias; I'm afraid of forgetting. I have a bad memory, and I get irritated when I forget the smallest thing. But, the idea of forgetting everything, just makes me want to black-out. It hurts my head thinking of it. The idea of the forgotten, be it data, ideas, objects, people, memories, in general freaks me out. Being forgotten (after I'm gone) is my greatest part of this fear. I seem to have the need to make my mark on the world, somehow.
Anablephobia- Fear of looking up: Hehe. This is a very conditional phobia. I must be alone (usually), I must be in an imaginative mood (not always a good thing, as we can see); it helps (in the bad way) if its dark, night, or if I've taken in some horror stories recently. In that state, I will not look up. "Why? Why in the heck??" you might ask.
Well, think about my darkness phobia; it is sortof a fear of what cannot be seen. So, when I'm looking straight, I can't see whats above me. What might be above me, then? A spider lunging at me? A face? Whatever my imagination desires, and I hate my imagination for it.
And then theres the matter of not being able to see around me, if I'm looking up. Then something could be making its way next to me; then I don't want to look down. Its complicated, and doesn't happen too often, but it does enough. I'll add in a few other fears that fit the 'predispositions' mentionned above, but aren't on the phobia list: fear of looking out windows; fear of looking down (if I can't see down at the time).
Apeirophobia- Fear of infinity.: This one I'm not sure how to explain. I suppose I fear the idea of going on forever, and everything (and everyone) else decaying around me. I fear the void, as I've mentionned before: eternal nothingness, associated with the idea of ceasing to exist. And, of course, being a Chirstian, I fear that I'm not being a good enough person, and may end up in 'h' 'e' 'double-hockey-sticks', forever. So, I'm not a fan of infinity.
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders. Ok, I've been over this a few times already. In short, I'm pretty cool with spiders, as long as I think they're not going to end up *on* me. Then I got the phobia, and then they get squished by my random, fear-inspired, thrashing about.
Bathophobia- Fear of depth. I love swimming; let me make that clear. But, one of my heavy fears is drowning, or choking (as is on the list later on). I've almost drowned twice. It is not fun. It leaves a mark. And where do we drown? In deep water, o'course (well, more likely). And the idea of it going down and down; like really deep; that scares in the way of confined spaces (as we'll see later). Thats really the main source of my fear of deepness; not being able to get back up.
Bogyphobia- Fear of bogeys or the bogeyman. "Bogeys? you mean those tasty things I get from my nose?" No, silly! Bogeys are basically mini-forms of "The Bogeyman". This, in turn, is associated with my fear of darkness. Bogeys and the Bogeyman are essetially fear incarnate, (possibly) huminoid forms that we associate with the imagined wispers, shifting shadows, darkening hall light, and creaking stairs and floors. So, yeah, scary; and they sure as heck robbed me of the sleep of my childhood!
Catoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors./
Eisoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors or of seeing oneself in a mirror. This usually needs the predispositions mentionned for the "looking up" phobia. When I'm in "mirror-fear" mode, I litterally don't look in any mirrors or reflections, even if I probably need to. Why? Well, what if I look in the mirror, and something is behind me? What if I look in the mirror, and nothing is wrong, then I turn and something IS behind me. What if my reflection is not me? What if it changes, or winks at me, or something?
Chronophobia- Fear of time. Time, time, time. Ignoring the fact that we're no longer sure if time exists... I constantly feel I'm out of time. I need more of it, and I panic as it dwindles away. If I lose track of a few hours, I feel like I've suffered a great loss. Stuff like that.
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces./
Cleithrophobia or Cleisiophobia- Fear of being locked in an enclosed place./
Clithrophobia or Cleithrophobia- Fear of being enclosed./
Merinthophobia- Fear of being bound or tied up.: This is another of my main phobias; probably number one. I don't like to be restrained; I don't like small rooms, but mostly only if they have no exit; I don't like feeling or being trapped under any circumstances, even if its just a limb (like my hand) caught in something. In all those circumstances, I panic, thrash, sweat, have loss of breath, and stuff of that sort.
Decidophobia- Fear of making decisions./
Hypengyophobia or Hypegiaphobia- Fear of responsibility: I don't like making decisions I don't have to (unless its affecting my freedom of choice) and I don't like extra and/or sudden gain of responsibility. When it happens, I get nervous. I'm not sure if its a full phobia, but its sure unpleasent.
Enosiophobia or Enissophobia- Fear of having committed an unpardonable sin or of criticism.: Ok, I've mentionned the reasons for the sin problem; ie, hell is scary. But also, and linked with criticism, is the fact that I seem to have a drive to try and make everyone I meet "NOT dislike me". Its ok if they don't like me; so long as they don't hate me. So I don't like it when people notice I did something wrong (shame!!) and when I've done something wrong enough for my morals to nag me about it (shame!!!!!).
Gerascophobia- Fear of growing old.: As much as I fear the infinite, I fear aging and waning.
Katagelophobia- Fear of ridicule.: I've even mentionned this before too, haven't I? If I'm ridiculed, in the least, I get embarassed to the max, my thoughts stop and fail, I ridicule myself further by some idiocy, and it haunts me for days, months, years afterwards.
Kenophobia- Fear of voids or empty spaces.: Yeah, I don't really want to talk about that again. I'm afraid of the nothingness. Of the inexistance of anything. 'Nough said. This can tie in with fear of forgetting, of darkness, of dying, etc.
Mnemophobia- Fear of memories.: Yeah, yeah, I hate forgetting; so why do I fear memories too? Well, I don't know. (what a hypocrite, eh?) Whenever I get hit by a memory (especially because of a smell; and mostly only if its a decently distant memory), it hits me hard. I get light-headed, or something, I forget. I just don't like the feel of the past. Let me try to rephrase all this. I like remembering, but I don't like being IN a memory, which is what happens when I get hit by one.
Noctiphobia- Fear of the night./
Nyctophobia- Fear of the dark or of night.: Uhm, because it makes stuff dark? Yep. Thaats mostly it. Theres a bit more to it, which is why I put it aside from dark, but I don't know how to explain it, so I won't.
Oneirophobia- Fear of dreams.: Yaay! Dreams! The place where I never know what will happen; where all those things I imagine in the dark really can come to life and scare me; where I have no control; where every other fear can come prancing it to visit when they want; when I can feel immense pain (yes; in fact I've had dreams that might have been the most pain I've ever felt; it involved being stabbed if that gives an idea); when I can be choked (and yes, someone has choked me in my dream, and I felt the suffocation); where people I care for can die over and over; etc. etc.
Optophobia- Fear of opening one's eyes. This is sort of like the darkness one, and the looking up one. But the difference is that it only needs one predisposition; that I'm alone. So, any time that I'm alone, and that I'm concious that I am opening my eyes (so, not when I wake up, when its reflexive), I fear that I might open them to an unwelcome sight; like a face for example. This fear has a good source too. Many times, when I've gone to sleep, I slip into a dream, or even only a semi-dream, and opened my eyes to find someone (scary) leaning over me, looking me in the face, etc. So, the moment I close my eyes to sleep, I don't open them until morning, even if I need to shift my blankets, or whatever.
Phasmophobia- Fear of ghosts./
Pneumatiphobia- Fear of spirits./
Spectrophobia- Fear of specters or ghosts: Can't really kill a ghost; so I can't stop it from tormenting me (and I allow the idea that a ghost would torment me). I'm not sure if I even believe in ghosts, but even the idea (huzzah for my imagination again!) can put me down.
Pnigophobia or Pnigerophobia- Fear of choking of being smothered.: Well, I've almost died from choking at least once (luckily someone nearby knew the hymlick manuver -- yah, I bet I'm spelling that wrong). And, like I said, I've had a dream or two that came close too.
Sciophobia Sciaphobia- Fear of shadows.: That can go along with bogeys and darkness. Because thanks to my wonderful imagination, shadows move, and I cringe.
Thanatophobia or Thantophobia- Fear of death or dying.: I believe in God, I believe in Heaven, but I'm still human and I've got a mind that thinks too much. Which means, I wonder all the "what-if"s . Like, what if theres no Heaven, what if I die and I go to hell, what if there's nothing after death, etc. etc. "We get the drift."
Topophobia- Fear of certain places or situations, such as stage fright.: Partly attributed to fear of humiliation. Thats mostly it, but even if I'm not humiliated, I don't like to speak in public, I'm TERRIFIED of acting in public, and I've even spasmed in fear one time and I had to step down from a presentation. I've come a long way from the spasms, but its still not fun in the "hot-seat".
Well, there you go. You all probably think I'm a wierdo after that.
I can sum it all down to this though:
almost all my fears are cause by thinking too much and imagining too much. I can't help it; I'm not saying I'm a genious or something. My brain just does too much (not necessarily too well
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Killerzzz
P.S.: I'd also like to mention that I will *defenately* not sleep well tonight: I've basically brought up every fear I can think of, and my mind is FLYING with them! Yaaay; yipeee!
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