Post by janggut on Jun 25, 2009 3:08:19 GMT
i know what u mean, Gal. some dreams felt so real that u get pretty confused; is it just a dream or is it memory? very Ghost-in-the-Shell kind of weird. i can't recall any of my dreams but i recall feeling so upset/anxious/excited about what happened in them after i woke up. maybe my brain was defragmenting & i woke up halfway during defragmentation. i need a better file system up there. ;D
have u ever experience being conscious about falling asleep? u know that u're going under & all your senses shut down & u are aware of it all. made me think of the term 'autistic mode' used in Ghost in the Shell: Standalone Complex series. is this how it's like when all your senses shut down? i have to admit, it felt very very terrifying; total darkness, sound muddled to almost total silence, no physical sense (touch, limb etc). thoughts especially voice are so amplified, my inner voice felt like a din, as if i was in the middle of a construction yard, but much much louder.
what i did, i focused with all my might & woke up. just to find that it's just a virtual reality, a dream. how did i know? the senses felt wrong. the usual signals i get from my limbs, tongue, skin, nose; a little too surreal. then i focused again; this time harder & i shook myself, or rather i focus on the thought of me shaking. woke up. felt more real this time. yeah, another virtual reality. tried even harder the next time. this time i shook my whole being, or rather focused on the thought of my whole being shaking. even shouted & screamed.
then i woke up.
have u ever experience being conscious about falling asleep? u know that u're going under & all your senses shut down & u are aware of it all. made me think of the term 'autistic mode' used in Ghost in the Shell: Standalone Complex series. is this how it's like when all your senses shut down? i have to admit, it felt very very terrifying; total darkness, sound muddled to almost total silence, no physical sense (touch, limb etc). thoughts especially voice are so amplified, my inner voice felt like a din, as if i was in the middle of a construction yard, but much much louder.
what i did, i focused with all my might & woke up. just to find that it's just a virtual reality, a dream. how did i know? the senses felt wrong. the usual signals i get from my limbs, tongue, skin, nose; a little too surreal. then i focused again; this time harder & i shook myself, or rather i focus on the thought of me shaking. woke up. felt more real this time. yeah, another virtual reality. tried even harder the next time. this time i shook my whole being, or rather focused on the thought of my whole being shaking. even shouted & screamed.
then i woke up.